Things are changing in every way lately and it's odd to say the least. It's making me nervous because with good change comes opportunity to lose it all. My "ride or die soul sister" up and walked away but I guess that's life,especially mine. But, with bad loss comes great gain sometimes. Ive gotten very close in a friendship with someone who is different from everyone I've ever known. She isn't different because of what she says or when but her actions. Our friendship is so unique and rare because I don't have to force to trust or believe her, I just do because she doesn't just talk she does and she listens, asks, cares. It's not about me just helping her, or me trying to force myself to open up. It's an insane and new feeling.
On the opposite end, being so open means actually talking about and dealing with my emotions and life. Two surgeries coming up and emotions come in waves now. I had an awful dream about being pregnant and giving birth to a little girl, Anna bell. She disappeared at the end of my dream.
My husband took time off of work to be here And help with my surgeries which is new and nice. My new friendship has also blossomed into a fellowship so to speak. She has interest in my life goal and I'm excited to teach her. Little by little we get closer in the outreach and I feel like I'm carrying out my purpose. Maybe this is all the new beginning I've been searching for for so long.
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