I don't even know what to say at this moment. So much has gone on and I hate night time. All of my friends are abandoning me. The not people that I trust are kicking me when I'm down. I'm not sure how I am doing as well as I am. I can't even say that all day every day is terrible. I am just so sick of so much drama and lies and people being conniving and deceptive. I don't understand why people can't just be straight forward. I wish I was just talking about one person so I could vent and feel better but it's so many people that it is beyond overwhelming. But tomorrow is a new day and I am counting down days until I can have my husband home for those two days again. This fire season is really taking its tole on me. I never thought it would get harder as he's been there longer. I just need real rest and then I can bounce back with vengeance. I'm just so exhausted in every sense but where there is a will there is a way.