"And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche
It's mind blowing that one situation can change your entire life. I feel like all that I am doing lately is going through the motions. I'm not happy and I'm not sad. Sometimes I feel like screaming and crying and just breaking down and other times I feel like maybe I am stronger than I give myself credit for. I see babies and sometimes I want to just squeeze them and cry and other times I want to run as far away as possible from everyone and everything. I feel defective, like they took something away that makes me disfigured. It makes me feel repulsive and disgusting, like there is something wrong with me and everyone should run away. Like they will catch some disease. Sometimes I am optimistic and other times I feel so stressed out like I am going to blow. Like a ticking time bomb. I guess just one day at a time.
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