How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

Trapped under this pressure and all I can feel is the tide rising. You're in the shallows and then tide comes before you can run the other direction. I don't know where to go from here. All I can do is panic and panic makes me feel like I am going insane. Is this all in my head? Is this some fucked up delusional paranoia? Nothing feels real anymore, nothing. I don't know if I'm sinking, swimming, drowning, or just trying to hold my breath. I am trying to lean on God for comfort and a feeling of safety but all I want to do is numb this all away but I can't and wont go that route. I don't do being scared well. Just have to make it through to a new day....I hope.