dreams of a dreamer

I had the most awful dream ever! I am never skipping my pills ever again. The most ridiculous dream that terrified me. I kept waking up and fighting not going back to sleep but I kept going back into it. I developed split personalities in my dream. These weird things kept happening and there were two stories to everything. Some reverted back to when I was a kid but the person who raped me was in my family. I kept screaming give me my pills. I had to sneak out of this hole in my wall where I was chained down to a wet floor. The floor was concrete and the roof was leaking down. There was nothing in the room but a sheet. This guy (who in my dream was actually my dad) would come in and rape me. Tie me back up and come back again. They gave me dishes like a dog and kept me in this room. The only thing is that I would escape and then when my hallucinations came back I would crawl back through the hole. My safety was no safer. This cellar looked like it was crumbling down around me. My mom would come down to the cellar and talk to me. She helped me escape once. We drove off the side of a bride where they were doing construction. The bars weren't interconnected properly so we were hanging off into the air.


I kept dozing off seeing things in my mind that terrified me. I closed my eyes and saw the water moving the tide coming in and sweeping at me. It wanted to take me in. Cover me in its depths and just never let go. The water moving up until I could move no longer.