LIFE

I don't know why life has to be so hard. I'm so fast drowning. I wish things were different. I wish I could just be a part of my life but life is just too hectic to be a part of. I hate being like this. This isn't fun for me. I am really heartbroken for my mom because she is the only one who understands yet is so far away. I am so miserable I can't stand it. I wish I was better. I hate that I am so incapable of being happy. I don't even know what to say. I never know what to say anymore. For the first time in months I just don't want to deal with life. ):