My psychologist was really harsh on me today talking about how my mom never loved me and I need to find something to fill my plan of suicide. She said she doesn't expect my suicidal thoughts to go away but my plan needs to be taken off the table and replaced with something else. A lot to think about there considering I have no idea what to replace it with. I probably wouldn't be so admit about having a full length plan if I had something to turn to. </3