Truth Will Set You Free

“The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.”―Gloria Steinem


I think I have figured out what I really want for Christmas and/or my birthday...I want a full day of no worries, quiet, peace, no drama, some relaxation and rest, some understanding and reason, no judgement or hurt, crying or pain, no doubts or fears, no stress or problems, no blame or discouragement. For one day I want bliss. I am absolutely maxed out and I have no more to give. I have been running on fumes and I just can't handle anything else in this year. I have made my share of mistakes but I am tired of paying for them. I have paid for them already and I am still paying for them. I want one day for everyone just to let me forget about everything and regenerate. Why does that seem so impossible? I feel like I just want to run, scream, cry, and throw the biggest tantrum anyone has ever seen. I am utterly exhausted. I know that I am not a perfect person but I have never ever been a bad person. I cannot give even a mm more. I need REST! I am tired of everyone pointing fingers, having to defend themselves, talking trash, being down right nasty and abusive. I need a peaceful place for just a day fake or not I don't even care.


I need to work on my guilt but with everything going on I can barely think from being so exhausted. I hope things can calm down so that I can begin to get back on my trail of this endless journey. Therapy tomorrow....thank goodness! I am now always thankful for fridays!