Fear

I have been thinking about writing for the last few days but I wasn't sure what to say. My anxiety is really high lately. I think it is from being away from my daughter. Both kids have been sick so I haven't seen her in a week or so. My husband is trying to find a job until he goes back to work and he is going to try and do the jobs program through DHS once we lose our unemployment in a few weeks. I think it is because of the shooting that happened. It really hit me wrong to imagine loosing my babies at such a young age. I obviously know I haven't lost her but missing her doesn't help. I will be so glad to be able to hold her on Monday! Hopefully that will relieve some of my anxiety. I will just feel better when we can move and see her whenever we want all the time. It's so hard having to keep my kids quiet all the time and keep them from annoying everyone else. Don't get me wrong at all I am so unbelievably and amazingly appreciative for the roof over our head and everything they have done for us, it is just hard being split up. For some reason I have this overwhelming fear that something is going to fall through where my daughter lives and she will end up homeless. I am worried that the same thing that happened to my son will happen to my baby and I won't be able to do a single thing about it because we have no more room in the house and my roommates are already having such a hard time with just my son being here. I know it is just paranoia but it is still a fear none the less.