"God gave us memory so that we might have roses in December."-James M. Barrie
I feel like Alice and Wonderland when she is falling down the hole. She just keeps falling and falling almost like there is no end. No where to go. I have to be isolated and alone in order to not be attacked. I don't know what to do anymore. My hole world is spinning out of control. If I stay here I might hit bottom again and if i leave I have to give up everything including my kids. I am not sure what to do anymore. I truly think maybe this is the life I deserve. I don't even remember what is like to be treated well anymore. Everyone says that I am the villain but I am not. No one even tries to understand. Everyone just keeps telling me they can't handle me and how they have tried to be nice to me. Why even continue if no one wants you around. I have some serious thinking to do and I shouldn't have to be worrying about all of this right now. I should be worrying about me. Everyone else controls my life now.
"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong."-Rascal Flatts
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