Sometimes at a Yield, It's Better to Stop

"We are drowning in information but starved for knowledge."- John Naisbitt

Sometimes I think that life would be easier if we could read minds. It would make the uncomfortableness of asking for help vanish. Sometimes we do not know what we need. Sometimes we do not know what to ask for or how to ask for it but we always expect the ones we love to contribute to our needs. I am in this place right now. A place of pure confusions. I do not understand what I want, what I need, what I am thinking. This state of confusion is taking me on a spin. Twirling round and round and round. I just want it to stop, and in that moment it speeds up going faster. The wind soaring through my existence.  My stomach turning from the circles and the dizziness wrapping my brain like a knot in a shoelace. Pulling tighter and tighter. I am going so fast that jumping is not an option, but staying on might have dyer consequences. I don't know my options anymore. I don't have understanding. I can barely process anything. I just know one thing: I feel like I am drowning. I wish someone could understand but I can't even comprehend all of this myself let alone explain it to someone else. Through all of this my body has been attacking me as well as my mind. These headaches are horrific, I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think. I don't even know what I am doing anymore. How could I ever expect anyone to help me if I can't even help myself.